There was some finality to my post last night and I did not intend to write again until the moment Jen's body gives into the cancer. But in this most difficult time of her battle, I realized that we need to read and feel your supportive comments just as you need to know how she is doing. We hang on your every comment, just as many of you hang on our every post. Compelled to comment or not, we are able to see the unbelievable number of people checking on Jen via the blog everyday. That number is in the thousands and it is a reflection of the number of prayers spoken, tears shed, and lives touched. Who would have thought that such an impersonal means of communication would become one of the most personal and important parts of our lives? Thank you for caring so much.
Jen is sleeping peacefully tonight and has been doing so for most of the day. She wakes up throughout the day and carries on mini-conversations, tells the nurses what she needs, smiles and waves at visitors, and then drifts back to sleep. Today Dr. Pluenneke stopped in to have a very important talk with her. With Jan, Dennis, Tina, and I present, he let Jen know that there is no longer anything that can be done to treat her cancer. They now want keep her as comfortable as possible because she will not be with us much longer. He encouraged her not to be afraid and that, although he has no answers for why, he knows that God wants her back with him. He was very compassionate and very comforting in what he said. Of course Jen was very upset -- because now her greatest fear was being acknowledged as reality by her doctor. He asked her if she still wanted to fight and her answer was yes. For that reason, he said she will have days, maybe even weeks left with us. She needs to allow the doctors and nurses to help her fight so that she may rest. Following a prayer and a lot of tears, she composed herself and thanked Dr. Pluenneke for all that he has done. Throughout the rest of the day she has been very comfortable and continues to be the sweetest patient I'm sure this hospital will ever see.