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Dinah Wonderly

You have an amazing way with words. How beautiful your latest post was. And thank you thank you for keeping us updated. I feel so blessed that you have chosen to keep us up to date. I feel that you are my family too. God bless you and the girls, they sound like they are coping as well as can be expected.. And you are a strong and marvelous man. I feel blessed to know you, although through an electronic media. Thanks again. Dinah


Beautifully said.


I stumbled on your blog tonight. I wish I could have read it sooner and gone through the journey with you and everyone else. It has touched me in such a way that I cant describe. As a young (26) mother of two, your story really hit home for me.
Your mentioned a sixth sense with children. When my son was about 4 months old he used to lay on my bed and look up at the window high up by the ceiling and laugh and smile. I live in what used to be my grandfathers house and I honestly believe he sees him here. All the time. I believe children have an ability to experience this because they have this beautiful innocence about them. They havent been affected by the harshness of the real world. This is why I believe that Emma is seeing her Mommy.
For my own selfish reasons, I would love to see you continue this blog. I would love to follow you and your children through this and be there for you to lean on. I do hope you keep this up but definately understand if you dont. I imagine it is going to be hard for you with those two beautiful babies but their love and their beautiful smiles are going to help you get through the bad days. You are going to need to lean on them for all the support you can.
You are truly blessed to be surrounded with such a wonderful family and friends. THe love and support they have shown you throughout this ordeal has given me a little more faith in people. Faith that we tend to lose when we stop looking at the big picture and start taking life for granted.
Jennifer is portrayed as a wonderful person through your writing and without knowing her, she has taught me a few lessons in life already.
Hug those beautiful babies and you will feel her whenever you need to.
Happy early birthday to Jennifer!

Brian Rauch


I am very saddened by your families loss. Cancer sucks and keeps sucking...
My family has and is being touched by the enormous and amazing community support of the Kansas City area in our fight against cancer.

Our four year old son Kevin was diagnosed almost a year ago with Neuroblastoma. ( Two surgeries, seven round of chemo, 12 rounds of radiation, bone marrow transplant, etc. and we can now report that he is in remission. Friends, associates, family, church and the community have been incredibly supportive and it is with their strength, prayers and support that we have been able to give Kevin every possible opportunity to beat this horrible disease.

I would like to invite you and your girls to an event that this same amazing group of Kansas Citians is putting on this Saturday to celebrate life and join together to fight Cancer. They have organized a Benefit dinner and auction for Kevin at Platte Woods Methodist Church. There will be games for kids, balloons, face painting, crafts,real fire engine, etc. I realize this may be a little "close in" for you and your family, but this community we live in is really remarkable and can do great things to fight cancer and support families in need.

Brian Rauch

Melodie Chrisman

Your words move mountains Chris. I found myself a little sad this morning thinking of all that has happened, wanting to shoulder things for you and Jan that only you can do. I love what you said about how Emma ran upstairs. I can imagine the sweetest that surrounds you both with all those girls love for both of you. You should have that faith in your abilities because you are doing an amazing job with it all. Your friends are here at the times when you do need that shoulder and we will be there to lean on at any time. Love to all.


Once again my first stop this morning was to check your blog. Even though I did not personally know Jen or you and your family, I feel like I do. So, I continually check your blog on a daily basis and look forward to hearing your beautiful words. Chris, you truly have a gift for expressing your self. The community still thinks about Jen and you and will continue to do so. I also opened the paper this morning and read the commentary by Barbara Shelly in the Star. She was the one that introduced me to you and Jen, so it is fitting that she wrote a follow up story. It goes to show, once again, how many people and lives you touched. Jen, you and your family will be in my heart forever. Please continue to post and let us know about you and the girls.

Alex Eaton

Hi Chris

Oh that is so sweet of Emma, it is these moments that you treasure, and like you said are the emotional highs. Bless you all and thank you for sharing this with us.


As I read your latest blog, I couldn't help but smile. Five years ago, when my children lost their father, our son was 1 and I was six months pregnant with our daughter. I can't even begin to count how many times since then that they have talked about seeing their daddy. Mostly my son talks about him, and even though he was only 1 when tragedy struck, he speaks of his daddy as if he were old enough to remember minute details. It never scared me or struck me as strange. It always made me feel at peace to know that we had our very own angel looking out for us....and now you have yours. Thanks for sharing that story!


What an amazing family you all are. Keep your faith and keep your family strong. God will guide you through this journey. Our prayers and thoughts are contantly with you all.


I also find myself checking in to see how you are doing and how your little babes are doing. I wanted to post another message and just write: Happy Birthday, Jennifer!You are in a great place and received a beautiful birthday present! You received eternal life in Heaven with Jesus Christ! Spread those wings and fly!

Thinking of the Ireland family daily and praying that through your site I learn to be a better mommy and wife. Thanks for sharing your life with us!


Dear Chris and Family:
What a precious gift our children are - running to tell her Mommy that it snowed, bless them for their spirit. I am a true believer that our children are aware of the universe much more than we are as adults - they are open and listen to their hearts.

The story about Jen was wonderful and her beautiful picture with her great smile made it even more wonderful.

Please continue to write when you feel like it, I look for your input each day - typing on the blog has become a big part of my day. Prayers for you and the girls, and family continue daily.

God bless you and bring you angels,

Shannon F

I just wanted to say thank you Chris for sharing your story with us. I have loved following how you and the girls are doing, also I hope that her mom is also doing well. Thank you again and I hope that you remember that she is looking down on you and your girls.

Sandra Ludwig

I'm a St. John's mom of 4 who has kept up with your blog and life since last Christmas. When I'd see Ginnelle I'd ask about Jennifer. I can't imagine how hard it is now to deal with the "quietness" of life. I know it must be hard to figure out where to go from here. Selfishly, I hope your girls come to school at SJL someday, so we can all love on them, but I know they'll probably go to Grandma's school. There are so many of us who are praying for you and pulling for you. Anything we could do from childcare to meals...whatever you and your girls need please let us know. I'm so very sorry for your loss.

C. Baker

I was happy to see the article in todays paper about Jens experience. What a beautiful and amazing woman---You were all lucky to have had her in your lives. I think childeren are so much more open to accepting the fact that their Mommie is still really with them and she always will be----just think of her and she will be there---It is all such a heart-breaking, yet heart-warming story---

Maegan Ancona

Chris, Emma, and Peighton-

I feel so close to god when I read the blog, as I do everyday. I just find myself reaching so deep in my heart just to try to imagine what you are going through. I realize it is impossible, but what I wanted you to know was Jen is a beautiful angel, no doubt. Oh, some days will be harder than others, but this is the things all humans feel in the loss of a loved one. So you feel however you need too. If you want to cry all day one day, and even call into work just to lay in bed and cry, do it. I am amazed by the father and man you are. Give it to god, and he will never let you fall. Jen will see Emma and Peighton grow up, just from a higher place, she is in the VIP section. God Bless you today and always.


Thank you.


Dear Chris,

You are one amazing person! I, like so may others am glad you have decided to continue to let me be a part of your family through this blog. You have been blessed with two beautiful baby girls, who will continue to bring you happiness when you may feel that happiness is nearly impossible. You have a heart of gold and I only know you through the web so I can only imagine the impact you have on the people who are so blessed to physically be a part of your life!

Lisa Keeffe

Chris, thanks for the update as we are all wondering how each of you are coping! I check this blog each day hoping that you will reveal a cute story from one of the girls or your own thoughts about what you are going through! Thank god you have those children to remind you everyday that life is worth living! Your girls will be so grateful for all that you have done for them when they are older and look back on these days. You are a WONDERFUL father! And an inspiration to all fathers out there! Your girls are so lucky to have a dad like you! Know that you are raising them with so much love that they will in turn give it back to the world. I am so amazed at your strength and abilities to shine the light on everything good around you! I hope you continue to post when you have time and fill us in on your girls and their sweet stories! Lisa K


I just wanted to post a note to say that while I will be celebrating my finace's birthday on the day your beautiful wife was born. She will cross my mind and be in my thoughts. Stay strong Chris and hug those little princesses extra tight each and every night!!

Sarah Gullacher (Calgary, Alberta, Canada)

Your story has really touched me. I am also a young mother of two small children (6 months old & 22 months old)and reading your posts have really made me think. It is amazing to see how stong you all have been throughout this whole thing. You knew that God had plans for Jen and you were ok with that. Jen has taken her place beside God with the rest of his angels.

This song means alot to me. I hope that it can give you some more strength in this difficult time.
Lyrics to Avril Lavigne Keep Holding On

Keep Holding On

You're not alone
together we stand
i'll be by your side
you know i'll take your hand
when it gets cold
and it feels like the end
theres no place to go you know I wont give in
no I wont give in.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

So far away I wish you were here
before it's too late this could all disapear
before the doors close, this comes to an end
but with you by my side I will fight and defend i'll fight and defend yeah yeah.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

Hear me when I say, when I say
I believe nothings gonna change, nothings gonna change destiny
what ever is ment to be
will work out perfectly yeah

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth
so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

Keep holding on
'cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
just stay strong
cause you know i'm here for you, i'm here for you
theres nothing you can say, nothing you can do
theres no other way when it comes to the truth so keep holding on
cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through.

Catherine Franssens

Thank you for your vivid words. I cried tears of happiness when I read your post today. Thank God for angels and children.

Ann Hoffman

Hi Chris,
Thank you so much for sharing the feelings of emotions, the highs and lows you are experiencing. Your use of words is a true gift.I have thoughts of you and Jan in the evenings around bedtime,knowing that it may be a difficult time I bow my head and send prayers to you. I loved the photo and article of Jen in the Kansas City paper today. What a wonderful tribute to an amazing gal. My prayers continue.


I was just thinking about the snow thing myself. I've read the whole blog probably 4 maybe even 5 times. I remember you saying Jen loved the snow. Isn't it a little crazy how much it's snowed recently? Maybe it's just a coincidence but Jen could definately have something to do with it.

Zoe Randall

I wanted to send this to you before but at the time could not find it, today I was lucky and stubbled upon it. A poem I had found almost three years ago when my mother was diagnoised with breast cancer. I was lucky, today my mother is alive, I thank everyday that she is still here. I hope this brings you a little peace.

God saw you getting tired,
A cure was not to be.
So he put his arms around you ,
And whispered "come to me".
With tearful eyes we watched you,
And saw you fade away.
Although we loved you dearly,
We could not make you stay.
Many times we'll think of you,
Many time we'll cry.
If loved alone could have saved you ,
You never would have died.
A golden heart stopped beating,
Your tender hands at rest.
God took you home to prove to us,
He only takes the best.


Wow! Thank you for continuing to share your lives with us. I know it must a difficult time without Jen physically in your lives. May the memories of Jen and her spirit carry you through the difficult times. Happy Birthday to Jen tomorrow!

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