I write a lot about what we've done, what we are doing, and what's coming up, but I don't often give you an emotional update. I'm watching an old Goo Goo Dolls concert on TV and maybe it was the song Iris that sparked a tear and compelled me to talk about it. Anyway, all in all I'm doing well. Somebody told me a little while back that the fourth and fifth months following the loss of a loved one are the hardest. I'm starting to agree with that theory. I really do gain a lot of comfort knowing Jen is with our Lord, so I think the difficulties recently are a result of a some fatigue and the occasional feeling of being a "lost soul." I think keeping busy can help get you through the days and weeks, but it can also wear you down. I'm not sure that I can explain the "lost soul" feeling real well with words. I guess it's a loss of direction or moments of desperation because you have no clue what the future holds. Sometimes I catch myself hoping things will be back to normal soon, but then I remind myself that this is our new normal. I'm sure all these feelings are common and I have no doubt that time will bring healing. Our lives will proceed and the foundation will become so successful that thoughts of Jen will bring a smile more often than a tear.